you only live once....but you have to live with it.

i was talking to someone today and they were discussing fitting in, and trying to be the best you can be, which i only agree with too an extent...but anywho...i'm the opposite. i'm really not trying to impress anyone....i have great friends who love me for me, and i'm blessed. And some people despise me...i've come to terms with that's my personality...hate it or love it. and in the same sense my attitude is very hate it or love it, in that i form strong opinions and don't care who agrees or doesn't because they are mine. normally i end up not liking someone, or getting fed up with something alot sooner than everyone else...and i have to sit alone and wait for my friends to catch up. One of them always comes through and i am happy to have a friend like her...thanks britt. but the waiting is sooo old and lonely. i'm so sick of everything right now...why can't people just not be crazy??? why do people who live terrible lives and just all around suck, why do these people have friends? i don't get it...tryin to fit in and be the best is over rated i must say...but that doesn't mean you have to be terrible. i strive to be the best person i can be...in my standards and in my eyes...b/c at the end of the day i'm the only one who has to put up with it and live knowing what i've done...but some of these people must not have morals....i mean my goodness. i'm not religous, at all....but i believe in being a good person. Conforming to some of societys expectations, and rebelling against others. i just wish some would grow up and realize you are going to look back on this at 30 and be ashamed...and if you aren't you should be. you only live once...but you have to live with it. i'm proud of where i've come from and how i've matured..i in no way think i'm done moving forward...it's just people who are stuck in neutral annoy me sometimes..lol.

well that's my rant...back to studying.

stick and stones may break bones, but words always hurt.

well today i learned alot about whats going on in my life and in the life of my friends... >:[ not cool i must say. i'm glad none of my 'crew' is involved...lol Britt. for once, somethings gone down and we all have nothing to do with it..nice!

Diet days are slimming, instead of me slimming. damn what a...TERRIBLE idea before finals..so i will regain strength after finals and this summer i'll be a diet natzi...but until then...i'll be drinking sundrop all day :] the good life..yesss!

o ya, and one more....I HATE WHINING...just needed to get that out...everyone @ UNA has finals...although stressful you aren't the only one..so shut it and come and participate in the things you are supposed to be in. no one cares that you have tests before finals...me too, suck it up people.

on a good note, i spent the weekend with my father...weird i know....but i had a great time!! woot woot to that...it's nice to have family back in my life....i'm thoroughly enjoying it. i missed my little brother ALOT. that doesn't even describe half of it...we are super close and i'm so happy to see him on a regular basis. my gma is still crazy but ehh...it's just one of those things..lol

...all in all life is great! i'm ready for summer, and ready for a break...but....so is everyone!...

Finals...

finals.......SUCK. [lol] i'm new to this whole thing...i'll post later if i even get the chance....