you only live once....but you have to live with it.

i was talking to someone today and they were discussing fitting in, and trying to be the best you can be, which i only agree with too an extent...but anywho...i'm the opposite. i'm really not trying to impress anyone....i have great friends who love me for me, and i'm blessed. And some people despise me...i've come to terms with that's my personality...hate it or love it. and in the same sense my attitude is very hate it or love it, in that i form strong opinions and don't care who agrees or doesn't because they are mine. normally i end up not liking someone, or getting fed up with something alot sooner than everyone else...and i have to sit alone and wait for my friends to catch up. One of them always comes through and i am happy to have a friend like her...thanks britt. but the waiting is sooo old and lonely. i'm so sick of everything right now...why can't people just not be crazy??? why do people who live terrible lives and just all around suck, why do these people have friends? i don't get it...tryin to fit in and be the best is over rated i must say...but that doesn't mean you have to be terrible. i strive to be the best person i can be...in my standards and in my eyes...b/c at the end of the day i'm the only one who has to put up with it and live knowing what i've done...but some of these people must not have morals....i mean my goodness. i'm not religous, at all....but i believe in being a good person. Conforming to some of societys expectations, and rebelling against others. i just wish some would grow up and realize you are going to look back on this at 30 and be ashamed...and if you aren't you should be. you only live once...but you have to live with it. i'm proud of where i've come from and how i've matured..i in no way think i'm done moving forward...it's just people who are stuck in neutral annoy me sometimes..lol.

well that's my rant...back to studying.